Tots & Memories...

2008-06-18T00:18:00.001+08:00

my new blog @ www.zanneongnancy.blogspot.com

2008-06-16T23:48:00.003+08:00

i did some self reflection these days.

things really got bad. everything's just not doing fine at all.

it's a tough lesson. it's a hard lesson learnt. i cant believe such relationship would end up this way. Is our relations worth in terms of monetary wise?

Wadever happened in the past. i can't say we were fine all along. But then wad happened has happened. and the fact is it's the past.

y must u do such things to me? i just dun get it.

Well somethings just dun haf an answer.

i'm so lost.

but really i appreciate the help from few of my best frenz. esp. Adele, adelyn,zhiwei, law n lynda. thanks for the advice n support emotionally.

i really hope this will be a lesson tat will bring me to a better person....

this will be the last blog entry for this blog.i'm ending this blog coz there's just too much in it that i do not wanna recall anymore.

2008-06-10T18:39:00.001+08:00

yea yea yea

there's no ending....

wadever tat happened outside u dun have to vent it on me either rite? So pisses rite now!

2008-06-03T10:15:00.004+08:00

dun understand how one can be so dumb to be cheated by guys in terms of money.Not just once. hohoho.... Not referring to myself. But to a ...hmmi dunno how i shall refer her as.
Say me evil say me bad....but i am laughing out loud at her. At her stupidity. At her bimbo-ish. No...bimbo aint the word for her coz she's freaking nt so gd looking. Wonder how desperate she is towards guys. So desperate to "give in" just like that. If it's money that we know of, in terms of her body....i'm sure it's gone case la. But then again the last time tat happened,i dun tink so. Tats even lagi stupid!!!

Brend Brend....we shared tis big joke thru MSN....hohoho...how i wished u were here so tat we could really laught out loud together!

2008-06-03T00:28:00.014+08:00

what are the barriers that prevent many of us from attaining more happiness and peace?

Complaining without constructive action quickly becomes a habit. It causes us to focus on trival problems and take blessings for granted. And focusing on the negative drags everybody down.

Desire can be a force for positive change, but blind desire can make us covet and envy. It makes us oblivious to the suffering of others. Desire can also lead us to treat people as objects and value objects more than people.

When we believe that our possessions determine who we are as human beings, we may be forced to buy things we dun need or can't afford. Also, our possessions dun haf the desired effect on others, namely inspire respect,awe or desire, our emotional well-being suffers.

People with a strong desire for revenge miss out on the good things in life. They often only see the ugly,the irredeemable,the unjust. They add to the anger and hatred in the world, of which we already haf too much.Besides, revenge doesnt heal our wounds.

The person who frequently engages in self-pity is looking for sympathy, and in that sympathy, he or she hopes to find some relief. People who do this regularly see mostly failure, disappointment and insufficiency in their lives. They are unhappy at work and often find their relationships unfulfilling.

We feel resentment too easily, when ppl fail to care, fail to think or when they fail to meet our expectations of what we deem to be good, fair or decent. But resentment eats away at our spirit and mental well-being. Why gif someone the power to steal our peace of mind?

When we worry, we wasste precious time n energy freaming up hypothetical situations which most of the time arent true or will never come to pass. Worry costs us hours, days even of unnecessary stress.

Inpatience comes about when we value speed and output too much. We become so caught up wif wad we need to do or get done soon that we can hardly relax. When we're too focused on the destination, the journey can feel dull or miserable.

When we accumulate unfulfilled freams, we're feeding a ghost that will haunt our remaining years. Pursuing these dreams and making at least some of them come true is essential for a full and happy life. Otherwise you might end up so far from your ideals that u feel ur life has been in vain.

I am letting go some of my barriers slowly to work towards my path of greater happiness and peace.What about u?

2008-06-01T03:51:00.003+08:00

it's like almost 4am and i cant get to sleep....guess the coffee's making me awake...

went to Redz on Friday night for their 2nd anniversary...it's been some time i've been there.Still see the same old "gang" there.Luckily they still remember me...haha....either the sound system at Redz is good, if not, i guess i really sing better after a couple of drinks!nice to get compliments after i sing a song each time....and last night i saw a guy who can sing really well...indeed impressive!
it's been sometime i went drinking "full force". lol. didn't drive luckily and thus i could drink without worries. reached there at about 8+ and indeed i gt super high by 10pm! That is pretty early...would say it's the first time! coz i kept losing at the stupid dice game...had a great time actually.
But i guess i lost my stamina already. Reached home by 2+ (which is quite early compared to last time). and i vomited! Half way my deep sleep i woke up again and puke...in fact i used to drink much more and i dun usually puke except for super occasion like my bday when i'm forced to drink super loads of weird stuff.
slept thru really well...at least i dun need to rely on medication to get into my sleep....woke up at 11+ and prepared to go office for meeting..

After which i went to Timbre for dinner then to Vivo for some shopping. didn't get anything though...then drove to seletar dam to bum there for hours....

damn i am feeling so awake....

hmmm...who says girls can't take the initiative right? I'll take a step each time....i did a silly sms today...but then...it works! lolz....*grinz

2008-05-30T18:25:00.001+08:00

my dearest mr jon wu,

i hereby apologize for the mistrust i had on you.... muacks!

signing off
Ms nancy ong

2008-05-27T23:20:00.004+08:00

back from a grump moody day......i went to ECP...took a stroll along the coast of the beach...end up kena wet from a big wave...damn!

walked to mcdonald to clean myself up....and while passing by the coffee bean,i took a glance to see if u were there....of coz,u ain't there...n it began to drizzle....i took a slow walk under the drizzle. and somehow it affected my mood.....

i dunno where u went to....i know wad u told me isn't true...u didn't go Msia....u didn't go with the car gang.....i hate tis kind of feeling...y cant u be honest to me?

but then again...who am i to interfere?

I was enjoying myself last night at the KTV...JJ's really a nice guy....ever since poly i kinda felt he is such one rare species...lol

but a thought came to my mind suddenly...i felt so sad all of a sudden....

how i wish there is someone beside me right now...

how i wish there is a shoulder tat i can lean on right now...

how i wish tat there is someone holding my hand strolling down the beach...

how i wish i can share my smiles with...

how i wish i can sing ktv while holding ur hand and look into ur eyes....

how i wish i can be the "xiao nu ren"...

i went to TM for a walk...juz didn't felt like going back hme...i was in a bad state actually...my shorts n shirt was wet...but luckily my shorts were kinda dried up by the time i reach TM.but i really stink from the sea water...but heck!

i saw this...

nice? they had a bigger one which is pink in color n bigger...tempted to get both...but then budget la...and tis was the last piece...and the music juz happen to fit my emo ...

i walked in circles...and suddenly tot of wad Elen said once.... yi ge ren zhi you yi ke xin....and at tat point, i had 2 person up in my mind...nt tat i am confused but because i felt both guy is wad i am looking for and yet....we had no status...

there's too much similarities i would say.....i was looking ard for a gift as ur bday is approaching...i dunno wad to get...

Ppl reading tis blog wouldn't understand wad the heck i am blogging about coz it's not in a smooth flow...and tats becoz i dunno hw to put it directly...tats me...

should i just go all out and get wad i want....the kind of happiness tat i would look for?

pasta waraku? or waraku pasta?

2008-05-27T23:04:00.005+08:00

i had a good time last night....

Met Jianjia for dinner at Waraku de PAsta or was it Paste de waraku? lolz...guess the food pic u can find it at his blog....then we went to sing at Kbox at marina square....

JJ is a great singer i would say....and everytime i see him,he juz makes me smile. =) he's so happy-go-lucky! hope we can hang out more often!

oh ya...next time if u ever go marina square Kbox, dun get the room K3! The room ain't soundproof! and i felt as if i am in an aquarium...coz there's a glass door which we can see outside.ppl taking escalator can see us too...so weird! definitely nt recommended for ppl who wana hanky panky! haha....

2008-05-26T00:33:00.007+08:00

back from a wedding dinner......

interestingly something happened....i dunno if i'm too sensitive or wad....but anyway,i'm a common friend of both the bride and bridegroom....

was the last few to leave together with a group of friends and we decided to take a picture outside the ballroom. Guess wad? the bridegroom hugged me and put his hand over my shoulder to take a picture...another friend saw it and we both had a big reaction...i start to twist around n said : u drink too much ah? ur laopo jus there lei!" and of coz i shifted....eh...to the other side of him. lol...yea...a charming and handsome guy....too bad...taken!

and hmm...everyone still keep thinking me and cm is a couple.......haiz....

if things went on smoothly that time.....

2008-05-24T22:59:00.005+08:00

i am so tired....i guess it's been sometime i realli "worked" . lol....now that i am getting back on track,i could feel the tiredness in me...been working well....
anyway,last night went out wif my poly mates...we went to Shin Kushiya at Vivo. It's pretty nice there and i guess i will be back to try the food again! After which we headed to Ben & Jerry's...wif jess around it's somewhere we would most likely go! lol...
too bad i didn't take pictures of the food...urgh! We headed to Brotzeil for a beer after tat.... Guess it's been sometime i drank....it was nice to sleep after tat drink! lol

Today mainly was in office for meeting...after which we(lynda robin n me) went to Parkway for a walk...and i cut my hair!

actually not much difference la....but then...i feel much better la...much shorter... =)
oh ya...i saw an interesting thing...a drive thru ATM!! It's so cool! I dun have to stop my car engine and get down my car and lock my car and walk to the ATM! and the hassle of unlocking my car,start engine again! I just drive thru it and i'll get my cash or topup my cash card! I just think it's so so cool....

After my haircut i went for shopping theraphy! haha.... i got a sports bra,a NIKE polo T, 2 NIKE running shorts,a pink shorts and a pink top from Dorothy,a sleeveless top from Forever 21,CHANEL makeup base. Total spending for the day : $350!

oh great....with the GSS somemore...i dunno wad i'll do....shucks!

performance at esplanade 30-12-07

2008-05-20T21:43:00.002+08:00

Performance At Esplanade.....on 30 Dec 2007.....

with singer Joi Chua.....one of the lucky ones who can take pictures with her...somemore solo!!! keke....

with the secondary students.....the second one from the left looks like Cheryl huh....

with my dia dia....

creators outing...

2008-05-20T21:14:00.005+08:00

here's some pictures taken wif my colleagues.......We went for a crab meal at Joo Chiat there.....they serve fabulous pepper crab! after which we went to east coast park for chill out....

peppery crab...

chilli crab....

John & Robin doing the S-smile! take 1....sala angle...

Take 2....perfect! John's still the best!

Me & Lynda tryin the S-smile....

The lovey dovey....

stop eyeing on the beer!

We are happy people...life with me around is fun isn't it??? lolz.....

old town white coffee

2008-05-18T19:11:00.010+08:00

My home PC crashed due to some freaking spywares n virus thingy....and i dunno how to fix it. Well, meanwhile using my laptop for the time being. Not too used to using laptop though...and i cant play cabal.(i dunno y it cant load in my laptop) since i've got restriction in playing games,i've got more time to finally upload some pics! haha....all my pictures are in a mess!

Here's some pics taken at Old town white coffee. Located at East Coast Park (Big Splash). This is a franchise from Msia. and shareholders include Jack Neo n Mark Lee....been to this place few times and yup...seen mark lee n his wife n jack neo.

Went there for the first time with....erzi,adelyn

the story of old town.....long long ago....*yawnz

the interior settings.....

男人男人............ 女人女人...............

here comes the foodies!!!

what they serve was very simple normal dishes.....but not bad!
We headed to....Marina bay golf course.....

we are happy people that day.....

刚捧出来的浓咖啡饮料，我们不晓得味道如何。尝了一下，才发现味道非常独特。有时越喝越浓，有时越喝越苦，有时觉得甜甜的，有时却是淡淡的。同一杯饮料却喝出那么多的口味。。。其实饮料的味道没分别，而是当时喝着饮料的人的心情。。。你认为呢？

2008-05-02T00:02:00.003+08:00

silly silly me...

on the way to the hokkien association for practise....some thoughts came to my mind...too drama....too drama...yet i teared all the way from PIE paya lebar til BKE....

i can't afford to lose you.....

2008-04-26T03:20:00.002+08:00

It's been sometime i blogged...been sick...for 3 weeks already and counting...it was worse on last Sunday n Monday whereby i lost my voice....sobz. (talked like a duck!)

been staying home to recover.but it's still not getting anywhere. lotsa stuff been going on.....conflicts n such...n i hate to be in such situation....it's hard to play the games at time...n i am tired....

performance coming up on the 10-12 May @ esplanade.....

careless me accidentally lost my left lens again....darn!

2008-04-14T19:22:00.001+08:00

It was a lovely dream.....

simple n sweet......it was something i looked for.......

if dream come true,how wonderful it would be......

2008-04-13T01:55:00.002+08:00

as long as i believe there's still a chance between us,i'll hold on. i know for sure my heart is holding on for just one reason. And that's becoz of you.

I'll be your guardian angel.

2008-04-07T23:17:00.001+08:00

i'm so sick......cough.running nose.asthma.headache.insomnia....urgh

I'll be leaving on tmr (8April) evening and be back on Friday night.

2008-04-04T14:42:00.002+08:00

sometimes i still miss u beany.....but since i made my mind i guess there's no turning road...

i promise i'll be happier than before.

p.s. unblock me la.....i know u are reading this.

2008-03-31T14:13:00.002+08:00

I'm left with nothing...sad but true...

2008-03-26T08:43:00.002+08:00

Haven been blogging....lotsa activities going on...found an interesting past time- Prawning. will post the pics up soon...
last night went out for a chill out with my cousin,Stacey n her cousin Jin. Jin said not to give up the whole forest becoz of a tree. I didn't. I really didnt give up the whole forest. Just that it's always in the end,i choose to follow my heart.

p.s sorry

2008-03-13T22:12:00.002+08:00

my heart's aching......badly...

how i wished you could lend me your shoulder just now......it's not just today.....i jus know you still hold a place in my heart...

2008-03-11T23:21:00.002+08:00

i need someone to slap me and wake me up.......

i'm heading to a way of no thru road. i know its soooo wrong. and i know this relationship isnt heading anywhere.

2008-03-04T13:16:00.001+08:00

Separation weakens tiny passions and intensifies huge ones just like wind that blows out a light of a candle and fans

2008-03-02T12:31:00.003+08:00

教室里那台风琴叮咚叮咚叮咛
像你告白的声音动作一直很轻
微笑看你送完信转身离开的背影
喜欢你字迹清秀的关心

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧
有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因为太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧
有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因为太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明

2008-03-02T03:22:00.002+08:00

by now,some of my close friends would know about the "BIG" news of me in the very very initial stage of settling down.

friends giving me their opinions n views of my situation. i do appreciate that.really. thanks...

also,thanks to zw.

and of coz ah bean...

2008-02-28T17:07:00.002+08:00

You are no longer that "lazyboy" i knew. and i'm no longer the "cutiebear" u knew.

2008-02-28T17:05:00.002+08:00

"Beany-Fate can only bring you this far,once you are there,it's up to you to make it happen.

Love is like a perky elf dancing a merry little jig and then suddenly he turn on you with a miniature machine-gun!"

2008-02-27T15:35:00.002+08:00

Everyone has his or her reason for waking up in the morning. ---Mine is you.

When there is a problem between choosing the new one and the old one, that means you have not let go of the old one

This was what u put on ur MSN.I'm sorry.....give me some time....

2008-02-27T01:10:00.002+08:00

Been sick for past week....flu followed by fever n cough....nw left with flu....

And believe or nt,i found out y i had fever. I mean fever might be common to most people.But it's unusual for me.....my family doctor flipped back her record n told me tat this is the 2nd time i gt fever....n guess wad? i realise my tooth is growing! i plucked out the inner tooth 2 years ago. and it's growing!!!! lol....

The reason for my sickness.....i guess it's over depression. Especially the chat on last Tues. it was just so hurting....where i can't admit myself to you how i felt deep down while you,on the other hand,knew wads going on. Both of us just cant get down to face the reality of the problem.i cried throughout the night...til i'm tired....til i'm out of tears...and fell asleep. and i fell sick til nw. exactly 1 wk later, we met up as if nothing had happened.

i'm just so afraid of taking the next step of my life while having you deep down in my heart. SO afraid that i'll regret. Yet so afraid of getting hurt again and left with nothing. Tell me,what should i do?

I read Chin's blog....thanks. A simple thanks. As what i always believe,true friendships isn't about how often u meet up each other. it isn't about how well u understand each other. It's about sincerity.

2008-02-19T22:55:00.002+08:00

i need to move on even though i know it's tough.
i need to move on even though the scars are deep.
i know it's difficult but i need to move on.

i gotta learn to let you go.
i gotta learn to start a new life.
i gotta learn to be happy though i know i will never be as happy as before.
i gotta learn to be contented.

i've gotta set my track back again.

2008-02-18T01:05:00.002+08:00

i'm out of tears.....

when can i get out of this situation
when can i get out of such traps....

2008-02-14T00:53:00.001+08:00

are u stupid or wad???

y do u ask me questions that leave me "stoned"?

2008-02-13T01:06:00.000+08:00

something happened today.

My pal told me tis thru MSN....

XXX : are u declaring war wif HIS gf?

ME : huh???

i guess it's becoz of my nick that goes : IT"S NOT OVER TIL I WIN. lol....well i sincerely do not have the intention la....i juz find this phrase quite "impact". Don't u think so? i dunno y it keeps running in my mind....anyway,the conversation went on...

XXX : HE's getting married le.

ME (stoned for a while)
ME : realli?

XXX : ya. he told me

I went blank for a moment. i thought i could take it easy...but within like split seconds,my heart sank n my eyes went moist.

XXX : ya he getting married to me. tat day i propose and he agreed.

ME (duh.......)

my dear friend....dun play tis joke on me hor.....i cannot take it lei.....But it was a good one...cause i know the impact....

i dunno wad happen if it's realli true....will i "jump down" as wad i said?i dun like this kind of feeling.....

2008-02-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

I'm so freaking tired.....been reading up alot...preparing for a training course for the new planners.

CNYwas pretty alrite....CNY eve was spent going to temples.then 1st day was at my grandpa hse followed by temple visits again. and ended with a MJ session.
2nd day was with the BLCCCO members from day til night...
3ed day at Lynda n James' place....can;t believe we played Monopoly til 4AM! Alot of jokes...esp the yusheng joke...haha.....it's just too classic. Sunday was spent resting and clearing some work stuff.

More events coming up....like performin on Friday n dinners dinners dinners...

Happy CHinese New Year!

2008-02-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

Wishing all my friends and family good health & a year of prosperity!

2008-02-10T20:06:00.001+08:00

talk about RESPONSIBILITY........full of CRAP!

2008-01-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

I'm an attitude girl....

It's Ok. It's Alrite. I'll work myself up....though the path is tough...No matter how bad it can be,i CAN do it!

2008-01-22T23:25:00.001+08:00

it's been sometime i blogged....been busy wif work...and i meant it...real work... I'm putting 100% of my time to work.....come to think of it,it's alreadi coming 4 years i've been in the insurance line. I see the change in me.....to be ethical n professional and to provide for all my clients the best service i could.

thru these years...i've seen n heard n felt the importance.....not just bullshiting for the sake of my sales...but really,i've never regret being in this business.

busy busy busy.....working on presentation slides....coaching....sales.....

2008-01-12T00:25:00.000+08:00

happy...

motivated...

focused....

tats wad i am feeling right now.....though tired...but i'm contected. =)

2008-01-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

i seemed to lose the ablity to blog.......

i'm feeling so shitty these days.....feeling so uncertain of wad i wan.... feeling lots of resistance going on......

but nt to worry, i'll get thru this pit....feeling stronger than before.....i'll strive my way thru up the management

2008-01-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes.

In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain.

The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life.

What is it you would let go of today?

Flash back

2007-12-30T01:41:00.000+08:00

2007's coming to an end. How time flies....

A flashback on 2007.

- Alot of hospital visits.....both mum's n dad's health aint doing good. And for me,my eyes are giving me lotsa problems followed by a leg problem. Do hope all these would come to an end. For my family and all the people around me.

- Life at work is fun and abit too "relaxed". Well, i gotta change this bad habit and make myself disciplined,esp when my mum's not going to work anymore.... Have lotsa things that i wana achieve in 2008 and i am determined to do it.

- Lotsa happy occasions...
Most friends are doing well....friends settling down,getting attached,nice work etc. best pay CY is back for good.
Had lotsa birthday celebrations....and most memorable was of course mine la..... Lotsa friends turned up...from family to pri sch mates to sec sch to poly to working frenz.... definitely one of my best birthday!

- Love life is still the same....however,i'm happy the way things are right now.Coz i know wad i want and what's best for both of us. Give me more time and i'll sort my things out.

Though 2007 wasn't a really smooth riding year for me, but it's coming to an end! It's going to be a brand new beginning all over againg with new hopes new resolutions.

2007-12-25T11:45:00.000+08:00

Merry Xmas to all!

Xmas celebrations were pretty fun. Started on Sunday at my aunt's place. then Xmas eve was spent with my team in HSBC. We had a meeting,lunch followed by bowling. haha....it was a great get together.

After tat met Cindy(together wif my cousin), we had dinner n headed to Redz. cant believe we start getting excited from 830PM! By abt 2 Am my cousin kinda concuss. haha.....(throw my face) llol.......

By the time i gt home was about 3+ to 4. And i am suppose to go for a rehearsal the very next morning at 9!. Alrite... i was really really tired so i didn't go in the end. =P

2007-12-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

went for a test drive with my boss today. visited quite a few showrooms....apparently i'm kinda disappointed with the service provided esp, at Ubi showrooms! most salesperson ignored us. Was it the way we dress or look? duh...anyway,we were kinda disappointed and so went to Leng Kee there. At least the service is better. Volkswagon has a cafe corner...we had our "rest" there...with drinks n snacks. tested the new HondaCivic 1.8 and CRV. i liked the CRV Mugen kit....left with last piece...too bad.

went back office n had a meeting with my Boss....then went for shopping n dinner with my cousin Stacey. Apparently, I'm spending alot of time with her coz she's workin at my office. Met a funny incident.... was at this small corner/push cart shop selling cute stuff like small wallets pencil cases that has characters like Hello Kitty,Elmo,Doraemon,Twin Stars etc....there's this woman who's likely to be in her 30s going googoogaagaa like " wah....so cute! wah....look! I wan this i wan that....So Cute...." I was so irritated as this went on for like 5 mins non stop! sO i was feeling abit guai lan...so i challenge her and started my "wah"ing here n there....after like another 5 mins....Suddenly a plastic thingy which was quite big dropped from above n hit her head. She was just beside me... i was "stoned" for a moment....then she started going " Ouch!" but the way she whined was like " OUuuuuuuuu Ouuuuuu..."

It was damn funny but i tried hard nt to laugh coz it was quite an impact also. Apparently the salesperson was "stoned" by her "Ouuuuuu Ouuuu" that they didnt apologise. And best part was her fren treated like nothing happen and continued her conversation from before....

I walked away and giggle. And as i was in my car...i was laughing hysterically all the way from Plaza Sing to Tampines and to Hougang.....Wad a way to start my Xmas festive season. haha....

2007-12-21T01:26:00.000+08:00

went for a Dance performance at the Arts House 16 Sept.

Nice pic taken...and nice moves Kenny.

After the show we went to Clarity Cafe @ Katong. I've been to the one at Purvis St. i prefer the one at Katong czuse easy to park and it's nt crowded. Had a great time with Louis,Chenchin n Fadz. It's been some time.....come to think of it...it's scary. Seeing Louis n Chenchin "grow up". =)

Past week,I've been busy. haha...busy sorting alot of things. And shopping.And chilling out.

Bought alot of stuff....useful n useless ones.... Bought a single armchair for my home to suit the OSIM uPapa n USqueeze. Bought 2 board games - Game of Life n Monopoly. yea i am the onli child....so no one to play with. Please jio me out n i will bring it along! not forgetting clothes. I also got alot of interesting gifts.... =)

Sorting out alot of work stuff,filing and preparing for 2008. road ahead of me is tough. but I'm sure i can do it!

2007-12-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

went to Tampines n Century Square early afternoon. Shopped around and went for SakeSushi buffet. Then i went IKEA....and i got a armchair back. after bringing back the armchair,sent my cousin back and i went to Compass Pt for shopping. I love the festive season feeling....Esp. the Xmas season. Everywhere's playing jingles and most shops are selling Xmas gifts....it's juz so filled with joy n love. I just loved it....

got myself 3 bottles of nail emmanuel (i got lots alreadi. OMG), went to buy stationery for my "Sketch book". Currently doing a DIY sketch book with photos n such. My art ain't good at all and i meant it/ NOT AT ALL. So i'll need handicraft to replace my hand drawn stuff or such.....

On my way back i was thinking on how to go about for my sketch book....and it led me to some other thoughts which made me tear all the way back.... silly silly me.

Changing Perceptions

2007-12-12T12:37:00.000+08:00

"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is."

Einstein was referring to perception and how every often, how well or how badly you feel about something is due entirely to the way you see it. You can instantly change your emotional state by changing the way you perceive the situation.

We live in an age of unprecedented equality - many of us have access to the same opportunities to improve our lives. Yet we find there is a whole spectrum of people stuck between Depressed and Joyful, between Yearning for More and Contented. Two persons can have the same experience and respond very differently.

Scientists used to believe that we respond to information flowing into the brain, but we now know, scientifically, that it is actually our interpretation of the information that determines our response. Our past experiences create an expectancy that is primarily based on what we "know" and what we "know" is that which has happened before.

Our belief system is one of the main ways in which our minds make sense of the world. A belief is a sense of certainty about what something means and they're mostly formed and hardened by past experiences. In essence, we make expectations about something based on what's happened before. For example, you might believe that you never get second dates because no one's agreed to it in the past. As a result, you go for that first date with a gloomy forecast of what's to come and don't make any effort to encourage a second date. After the date, you don't follow-up or call to arrange another meeting. Needless to say, a second date doesn't happen. You believe it's because you're undesirable, but the real reason is simply that your limiting belief had caused you to sabotage your own chances!

Perception is a way of grasping and making sense of the "realities" around us. Perception links a meaning to what you take in with your senses that allows you to have the experience in your nervous system. Because perception is based on interpretation we can change it.

A change in perception is what turns the half empty glass into a half full glass. Perception explains how two people can have exactly the same experience and one commits suicide while the other becomes an inspiration for generations to come. Whatever you perceive is going to be true for you, regardless of what you see. Change your beliefs, change your perceptions, and you can change your life.

2007-12-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

i wanna change myself to be a better me....

I wanna prove myself wrong and that i would succeed in year 2008.

lotsa changes coming up....I'm gonna be a brand new me.

Zanne Ong Nancy.

2007-12-05T00:00:00.001+08:00

getting ready for the festive season!.

May the year end with joy and starts with a smooth ride!

2007-12-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

feeling corny....haha... I'm eating popcorn at home.....had a sudden craving for it juz nw....so i went to buy...... =P

2007-11-28T13:15:00.000+08:00

Thanks Alfred for the lunch yesterday. And yea,i also wish u all the best in ur career and ur love life.

Glad that we are still friends after we've been together for a short while. And i do feel sorry for how i treat u that time. U're a nice guy but my heart juz can't let go. Frenz 4eva ya!

2007-11-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

Today's my birthday........Though i celebrated last week...but it seemed like it didnt exist.haha...It wasn't a bad day...but i do feel a little disappointed.

Good news is that mum got discharged today. Aunt check up review was fine. Didn't went out with frenz today due to my mum discharge. So went to eat Crab Mee Hoon @ Geylang. It's superb!

Received many greetings from friends...Thanks...And yea...alot of dinner appt coming up...lol....

I mentioned i was a little disappopinted...was waiting for someone to invite me out for a dinner...or supper...but nope.

2007-11-26T00:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

2007-11-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

I'm back....back from Genting.It wasn't a pleasant trip aspecially the start off. My mum was admitted to SGH on Friday morning. Reason : Heart attack.

I was hesitating whether to cancel the trip as she would be going thru the Anagram procedure which have 1% risk. And it's scary from the way the doctor describe it. It's like putting a needle into her thigh. And the "needle" would travel to her heart and if there's blockage in her artery,they would do a "balloon" or stent if necessary. Scary isnt it? She was pushed to the theartre at about 4+pm. My aunt said she'll take care of my mum and to procede wif the trip as per planned. So i did...with a heavy feeling. But thank god,my aunt said my mum was alrite. her 3 arteries are all blocked. 2 has been cleared. The other one is to be on hold first.

Trip at Genting was alrite onli...perhaps with better companion would be better.

Mum's alrite already. waiting to be discharged hopefully tomorrow. And she would have to be back again next wk to clear her other blockage. Next is to clear the hospital bill which i estimate to be up to $6000-$8000.

2007-11-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

For those who cant view the slides please go http://s86.photobucket.com/albums/k117/ironancy/25%20bday/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2007-11-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

chalet

2007-11-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

taken in the chalet after the BBQ....mostly self taken...haha...self entertainment...

BBQ

2007-11-20T21:22:00.000+08:00

Pictures were taken during the BBQ...all random pictures....machiam wedding like that...table to table...

My pressies

2007-11-20T21:15:00.000+08:00

Above is my lovely pressies by my lovely frenz....of coz still gt angbao by some.... =)

Thanks a lot!!!

2007-11-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

I'm back from my birthday chalet.... yea...it's an advance celebration. I had great fun though it was really tiring. Age's really catching up...haha....

It was fun and nice to see my friends turning up. BBQ was great with the food n drinks. will post up the pics real soon!!!! Thanks for all the nice presents.....keke.

2007-11-17T01:11:00.000+08:00

silly me....

tears filled up my eyes when you talked to me.... don't ask me why....cause i don't know why either...yes it's scary,we known each other for 10 yrs le,.....

Tomorrow's the day....BBQ n CHalet!!! Been preparing for the past 2 weeks....kinda messed up...especially the invitation part...it's like i stop inviting certain grp of ppl n i end up dunno who will turn up....

anyway,there'll be lotsa food tmr.... Curry chic,mee hoon,lontong, BBQ stuff.....think got about 10 varieties ba...crab is based on first come first serve hor...

tomorrow's not the actual day of my bday...but i got a wishlist -

1.a pendant.

2. XXX

2007-11-12T13:27:00.000+08:00

I have weird feelings.....

i somehow liked the way u held my hands. Though i dunno why u did.....

The stupid n silly things u did made me laugh....though i know u r aching inside....

The times u made me angry....yet u still made up for it by doing silly actions.....

I like the way that u are so frank with me.....and u never tried to hide anything from me....even some actions are disgusting....

BUT i like the way it is right now. And that's it. Coz my heart can never be replaced.....

At times u asked me to forget and let go.........i wanted to....but i cant....and somehow...i don't want......

silly eh?

some updates

2007-11-12T13:21:00.000+08:00

Well,Last thursday my mum was admitted to SGH A&E. Thank god she was alrite. But then she needs lotsa rest...Been having family gatherings past few days....

Had Steamboat at my uncle's place onThurs. Of coz nt forgetting the MJ session. then Friday i went to the Eye centre for checkup. Well,initially they scanned 2 spots in my left eye. Now 1 of the spot is gone...but the other seemed to have grown bigger...

Friday nite went to Redz to celebrate Law bday....

Sat was gathering at my place....Steamboat n curry fishhead...yum yum....

Sunday i went to BLCC for practice.....then headed home for MJ again...lolz...

Steps To Happiness

2007-11-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

It's been said that happiness is a journey, not a destination. Many of us make the mistake of denying ourselves joy until something happens - until we get that promotion, until we get our dream house, until we clinch that million-dollar contract.

Happiness can be elusive, but if we follow these simple steps, we may yet attain it sooner and with less strife than we think.

Are you overwhelmed by a sense of dread every time you try something new? Happy people focus on what is possible rather than dwell on the chances for failure. They look at the lighter side and find humour even in sticky situations.

This also applies to inner judgements. Many of us are self-critical when we need to practice a little kindness towards ourselves. Observe your own thoughts - what do you tell yourself about how you are handling things? Maybe you did make a mistake, but you were exhausted.

Do you complete one project only to rush on to the next? Similarly you may meet challenges of a more personal nature, such as having a difficult conversation with a family member, without acknowledging your own effort. It's important to absorb the satisfaction from your achievements.

Some people believe the world owes them - that they are entitled to "the good life" and all its benefits. They become bitter when setbacks occur and tangible rewards stay out of reach.
We need to ask ourselves - what can I offer others? What can I contribute to my family, my community or the world at large that is in line with my skills and abilities? Sarah Bernhardt, a flamboyant French actress in the late 1800s showed uncommon wisdom when she said, "It is by spending oneself that one becomes rich."

Recognizing our life values, determining how we want to achieve them and taking steps to act on them is self-empowering. When you realize that you are doing what is most important to you, your happiness level shoots right up.

No one likes feeling stuck. It is important to know what you really want and then take some action towards it. Even if progress is slow, you will feel better going in the right direction.

No matter how stressed you are, take a break from your routine to admire the sunrise or share coffee with a friend. It is the moments which make us happiest - yet how many of them slip by unnoticed?

2007-11-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

Went for my eye appt on Thursday. Doc says that theres some complication in my left eye. And I did the scan and sure...there was 2 spots in it. Was given eye drops and was asked to come back the very next day again. And if it gets worse i have to admit to hospital.

So I went back on Fri. Thank god. It was better.

And u know wad? Thursday i spend 450 at the eye centre! And on Friday, about 100. And there's more to come....

super suay

2007-10-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

i accidentally broke my contact lens tis morning...this is the worse thing that could ever happen!
I dun have specs.
so i set an appt to go back to Eye centre for check up n replacement. I've not been going back for my concultation for more than a year. And....my consultant has left! F***. that would mean i MAY have to go thru the stupid scans n tests again....and its not cheap. definitely not cheap. When the eye centre called me asking me whether i wana choose a senior consultant or normal consultant. She explained about the price difference which is about $10 bucks difference. I mean...since i'm goin for it. Might as well get a senior one rite? But on the other hand,how much more experienced the consultant is, is another thing.

Going this thursday....$86 for CONSULTATION! excluding other tests,medication etc.

I AM GETTING BROKE for all stupid reasons.

2007-10-29T02:20:00.000+08:00

Some updates.....

Went to chalet on Sat. It's supposed to be a gathering for my sec sch mates...haha...not a big group turn up...but still it's fun to meet people whom I've never even see them after graduating 9 years back!!!!Lagi best, some from other class which like i juz gt to know. played Mj for 2 rounds....then after went off with CY for makan....chatted til 5+am.

And guess what? I CANT FIND A LOT TO PARK!!! this has never happened before. I mean i used to go out for late drinking and stuff but i always manage to get lotssssssss under my block. Actually i can always park at the bigger carpark further away my blk...but i'm so used to seeing my car from my window view...so LL...i waited. wondering who would drive off at 530AM on a Sunday morning....Luckily gt a lady went off.

Went to play MJ again....juz reached home (it's 230am nw).

Something to announce is that,I'm getting a new name. Will start using the name once i decide what to use...lol....

2007-10-21T20:45:00.000+08:00

Bought a new steering wheel cover that comes with a pair of safety belt cover. It's black in color..... (yea!) so i shifted my old pair to the back seats which no one will use the safety belt.

Also bought a new pair of wipers. Come to think of it, I've been using the previous one for like 4 years! never change before...lol. Bought the RainX brand. Got a hard time fixing it....It's good. i mean really good....Or perhaps my old one really CMI alreadi....so i see a great difference.

2007-10-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

feeling so sad....not sad.....erm....down? depressed? i dunno la....

if i could turn back time,I'd go back to the times of secondary school where i enjoyed my life. With fun n excitement,full of confidence. And if you allow me to choose, i'd rather not know you.

Coz U changed me to someone whom i am not used to be.
Coz U left a deep scar in my heart.
Coz U made me do alot of silly things.
Coz U made my mind filled up with nothing but U.
Coz U made me cry.
Coz U made me have sleepless night.
Coz U ......
Coz U ......

If only.......

*crying myself to sleep.....

2007-10-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

i feel like having a tatoo on my birthday.

2007-10-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

Went to ECP Laguna Hawker there for dinner.....3 of us ordered...

- Stingray
- Mussels
- Chicken Wings
- Cuttlefish Kangkong
- Oat Prawn
- Fried baby squid
- Fried Oyster
- Gong gong
- Coconuts(3)

OMG.....total bill $80! so power rite? After dinner went to stroll around the wakeboard area.....
Been going ECP recently....

Last nite,we went to Serangoon Garden for dinner to celebrate Lina bday...after tat went to Barks Cafe to chill out. We ordered a barrel of beer....lol. Missed that place.....Bark's have been a place of memories for a group of frens of mine. Ever since the gang broken up,I've least stepped into there.

2007-10-17T21:31:00.001+08:00

falling sick....

i got my target to hit.....$18000 more....help

2007-10-15T23:49:00.000+08:00

i have a private blog....finally....

so sweet......silly me

2007-10-10T01:40:00.000+08:00

没有期望就不会失望...

how true,isnt't it? part of me is looking forward to the chalet. yet a part of me is holding back.Cause i dun wanna be disappointed.

Anyway, I'm starting to draft down my guest list and food list. I think i mentioned to abt 20 ppl and 99% of them are coming!!! In fact, really, i think its been some time i meet up with some groups. Kinda miss them...And with this in mind, i decide to extend my guest list. I know its chaos but i know i'll be happy to see everyone there.

Its kinda headache to cater to everyone...so i decide to have both BBQ and cooked food. my bobo cousin looking forward to "decorate" the chalet... Got to scrimp abit le...i think estimate cost for the whole thingy is about 2k. OMG...tat's close to closing a $130000 investment! where to find!!!!!!!!!!!

wishlist...

2007-10-03T16:30:00.000+08:00

hmm...let me think of my wish list ba....haha...

but thanks to few people in advance.

1. Bro HQ. he wana sponsor part of my cake....so nice...

2. Law/Elen. drinkers remain as drinkers...they sponsoring wine and liquor. Also Law for helping me collecting stuff...lol (no choice ah!) haha....

2007-10-03T16:20:00.000+08:00

decided to delete the previous post......

Anyway,looking forward to my bday celebration. haha...perhaps its because the last organised celebration was my 21st.. ever since it was nice and warm celebration with close frens. Besides my bday,i hope to get in touch wif my friends. I mean...its been sometime i gathered with my friends...i really miss them. Ever since we step into the working society. we had less time together....

Few groups tat i will be inviting...

- Relatives.
- Family friends
- Red Swastika
-Ngee Ann Sec
- Singapore Poly
- Fellow work colleagues
- Pub friends
- MJ khakis
- Orchestra frenz
- Clients

Hopefully i didnt miss out any...details tat is confirmed is i'll be celebrating on 17 Nov (sat). All is welcome to stay overnite. MJ table will be arranged as per request hor...Invitation will be sent in another 2 weeks....now abit too early hor...

No BBQ(maybe 2nd nite if wan). czuse my room is on the 3rd level. pit is on 1st level...so kinda troublesome....food wise...list not confirmed yet. haiz...

2007-09-27T00:45:00.000+08:00

had dinner at JUMBO SEAFOOD in celebration of my colleague John's birthday. Had pepper crab, chilli crab, drunken prawn,veg,you tiao...And i got him a cake from Secret Recipe....Choc Banana cake!

I dunno wads wrong wif me....i felt luck is wif me yet i feel my heart shattering...Luck in terms of work. Work is pretty smooth...But i keep having the feel of sunken heart...

Never Let You Go

2007-09-26T00:44:00.000+08:00

the rain just never seems to bring the joy i feel the same
everlasting pain of my loss remains
my heart can't seem to learn to part
the hole you left the mark
all that i dreamed of now it seems so stark
tho i told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

if you gave me one chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would sing to you and tell you i won't live my life without you
if you gave me one chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and ya know, i'd never let you go

the way you left me on the train
i don't know what to say
i remember everything on that day
i can't believe we'd never dance
i just need one more chance to share the sunset our one last romance
tho i told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

if you gave me one chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would sing to you and tell you i won't live my life without you
if you gave me one chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and ya know, i'd never let you go

2007-09-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

Been shopping ard.....eating....guess i shld stop spending money....omg.

its 1150 PM 23 Sept...

Feeling kinda emo....but i dunno wads bothering me. Its frustrating isnt it? Also,last nite went play MJ from 8PM til 9 AM. and i didnt had my dinner then...and when i reached home,i rest a while and go into deep sleep til 1+pm. feeling hungry yet cant eat. So i suddenly have the "healthy" plan. ate apple, drank orange juice. still hungry...so ate wholemeal bread. But i tink too late....gastric kicks in already. The pain is still on till now....getting worse. my gastric problem started when i was in sec sch...still remember the first time i faint n passed out in sch and was sent to the hospital. Scary... But my gastric isnt those "normal" type. When it really comes,it gets really bad. 2 times i passed out due to gastric problems. After the 2nd time i dun really dare to skip meal or such.Now the pain is there but under control....urgh...hate tis feeling...

Oh ya...my emo feeling....i really dunno...Work?Money?Friends?or HIM?HIM?HIM? alot of HIM hor....haha....

somtimes i hate to ask myself if i had unconsciously fallen for HIM A...i really hope not. Yet on the other hand,many says we make a gd couple. The feeling is jus so mutual when i am wif him..simple yet sweet. sweet doesnt means we sweet talk or wad...but the way we chat,the way we teased each other,the way we squabble over stupid stuff....its juz so _____. (dunno wad to put). But on the other hand,i know his past...n i somehow see tat as a "barrier". haiya ..i dunno wad i am talking about also. Not as if we are going to be a couple.....stupid.

HIM B. someone whom i know in poly days. A Senior. something happened then and we didnt "proceed". Still in contact.but it's a weird feel coz its like so many yrs didnt contact...then suddenly nw going out. a very very nice guy...definitely a good catch i must say. I dun really take initiative la....so *sit n wait

HIM C. haiz....the ONE who always make my heart shatters. even thinking of him makes my heart sink. *no need more explanation. *sit n rot

Time is an illusion

2007-09-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

When we're feeling lousy or sad, we tend to forget that life does not go on forever. That every moment is an opportunity for love, knowledge, compassion, creation, and joy, and once gone, can never be retrieved. We are too fixated with the past and all its "could have"s and "should have"s, squander our precious present by feeling sorry for ourselves, and imagine a future that may not come to pass!

We've all been brought up to believe that time is quantity - 60 seconds make up one minute, 60 minutes make up an hour, 24 hours make up a day. But the meaning of time varies from person to person and from context to context.

Time is an illusion, a phantom, a delusion if you will. This moment is gone before I am finished saying "this moment". This 'moment' will virtually never exist! Time is not a thing, it has no substance...you can't touch it, you can't feel it, it cannot imprison you.

We should know not the quantity of our life, or our time spent on this earth - but we should value the quality of our life. Time by itself has no meaning - we have to give it meaning via our thoughts and actions.

There is so much happiness out there waiting for you. And there are plenty of people who can benefit from the joy you will bring them. You may now feel very lonely, and sad, and it may seem quite possible that you will never experience joy, love, spontaneity and fun again. Which is, of course, a most absurd thought. Don't worry, it's just the grief talking? the withdrawal, the initial disbelief and dejection.

It is never too late. Very often, when we lose something valuable to us, we think it's too late to salvage things, to express our love, to show our appreciation. What we fail to realise is that we have ample opportunities to do this with other people we love, and the ones we will come to love!

I urge you not to waste another moment of your life - you'll never get it back.

Tribute to Granny

2007-09-18T22:54:00.000+08:00

Granny passed away on 13 Sept 2007 645PM.

we went down n started to prepare for the wake...It's weird coz my family is Buddhist, 2nd Uncle is Christian and youngest aunt is also Buddhist. Only my 1st Aunt is Catholic. And My granny is also Catholic. Unless u are blur abt my family, the ranking is as follow:
1) Uncle Joe (deceased even before i was born due to an accident)
2) Aunt Magaret
3) My daddy
4) Uncle David
5)Aunt Mimi (Adopted)

I was appointed as the treasure/accountant....Trust me. It's freaking tiring. Coz u must be there all the time as ppl give the "white gold" at anytime. But i do learnt a thing or 2 thru this...

I should feel happy for Granny coz Grandpa has been waiting for her. Finally they unite again. ... Though memories of both of them aint that much,but still i do recall of times where they dote on me when i was much much younger.

Now that you are the Promise Land,Rest in peace...

2007-09-10T22:39:00.001+08:00

I dun pity those who commit suicide....In fact I always admire them for their courage....Their courage to take their own life....

I'm looking for the courage within me....Perhaps not commit suicide...And if i do,it'll be on 26 Nov 2010. That's the day my heart stop beating IF ..........

In fact I am looking for the courage to "FLY"....to unleash myself and let go of everything....my car and parents...I wanna start afresh again.....to be another new me....

*stop dreaming

2007-09-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

been very unlucky....Sales is down....family n frenz is going in n out of hospital....My grandma's days are numbered....left about 1-2 mths....And can u believe it??? I sit at hawker centre eat also kena bird shit!

I heed my aunt's advice n bathed wif "flower water"....hope it helps ba....

2007-08-30T11:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday my grandpa was admitted to hospital....

morning 7+ he called my aunt n he wasnt able to speak properly...so my aunt rushed over. when they reached there,he was half conscious and was unable to balance himself and he was in a mess. cousin called for ambulance n i went to pick them up n went to the hospital. suspected that it was stroke...haiz...

while waiting at the A&E there,at first was pretty alrite. we reached there abt 9am.only 1 relative is allowed to go in...haiz so the rest of us stayed outside.we waited n waited...from lunch then to starbucks....ard 1+ a nurse told my aunt tat if there's a bed my grandpa will be warded. so we wait again...my grandpa was left at an area which looks like a garage to me...with 2 rows of patients who is waiting to be warded. Til late afternn,i saw quite a number of patients being pushed up to the ward. Getting abit impatient i barged in n take a look at my grandpa coz i so happen to see a doctor checkin on him. By then there's onli left wif 3 patients there(b4 tat was like about 20).after a while we got chased out. so me n my cousin went to Novena square to get some food...
around 6+pm...i was getting pissed off. Coz i see so many patients going up already. So i went to find the nurse there n asked her y it took so long to find a bed? And if there's not enuff bed in the B2 ward,we can go for other ward. she said tat they are nt in charge in this arrangement and its the bed management department who arranges it. SO i asked her who i can talk to...she juz continue saying that it all depends on the condition n seriousness of the patient. This phrase is just too much! My aunt then said :" Means my father not important la!"
The nurse kena shoot til she keep quiet. Then in less than 5 mins a exec came to us n asked us if we were ok with a "additional bed " arrangement. then she also said she talked to my grandpa n she is unable to communicat with him. OMG! pls for goodness sake. Means earlier there's bed.She could have called us earlier lor. we waited so long. then after a while they gave us the ward number. we went up n wait...waited for an hour still cant see my grandpa. So angry!!!

I went down to the A&E there again and i saw my grandpa still there! i was so angry! i asked wad they were doing n y it took so long! An hour lei!!! if they realli so busy then i push up myself la!!!then start to give lame excuse saying the colleague coming over already. My cousin said we go up first. But i said No. and thati want to see them pushing my grandpa up first! so they start pushing him then i said loudly,: "won't stop half way hor??" my cousin was like !!! lolz...

seriously their service juz SUCKS! even up in the ward...after everything settled we went back to ahgong house to clear up. i reached home about 12+ midnite...its so tiring.

my ahgong also like a kid...he cried like a kid....

2007-08-28T23:00:00.001+08:00

love's in the air....

2007-08-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

Sigh....i received a SMS from Mr Jason Cheong....he said i cruel!!!! haiz.... So for his sake,i changed back lor....I am so afraid he will fall for......eh hem...lolz....

2007-08-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

it's been a praying mth....1st day of 7th month,my grandma death anniversary,then Sunday pray at grandfather place to ancestors and "public" haha...(really pray 2 times lei...)..today at cousin's place...also pray ancestors and "public"....This Saturday going to pray at office...then end of the 7th month also pray....

And when we pray,means got lots of food...OMG....eat n eat n eat....and furthermore hor...its like the same dishes lor...."standard package" is Duck,Chicken,Roast meat,Charsiew,Soup confirm is cabbage with fishball...

Next time my descendants wana pray to me hor....juz get me MOS Burger milk tea...lolz....

i prefer duet version

2007-08-26T22:10:00.001+08:00

2007-08-26T20:33:00.001+08:00

jus got back home....today spent the time at my grandfather's place to pray. Played Mj wif my uncle aunty n cousin...then went supermaket...its the "routine" to drive here n there when i meet up with them..."lol

tired....always feel tired after meeting my aunties one lei....nothing against them.....really...maybe its the "short trips" here n there tat is tiring...you know... whereby u drive a short distance. Park. then after a short while leave. then short distance. Park. then leave.

Pretty pleased wif this month commission....One of the "peak" ones....but there seemed to be some error...i think there's short....dunno wads wrong with my company system. So "corked" up. I think i got to sit down n calculate case by case to see if there's error... looking forward to the new incentive... *clap

I will work towards to a 5figure monthly commission....i meant regularly monthly....ganbate

2007-08-26T20:27:00.000+08:00

Last Night, I dream that you were beside me
It seemed so real, that I cried ..
When you touched me, you are my angel..
And you've given me wings..
And I'll fly away with you wherever you go..
Cause you have filled my heart and you've captured my soul..
And baby I want you to know ..

If there is one thing in this world I know is true..
It's the love I feel when I am thinking of you..
No ocean, no mountain can keep us apart..
Cause no one can take away someone who lives in your heart

All out hopes and our dreams are alive..
I will carry you with me through distance and time..
Nothing in this world can keep us apart..
No one can take away someone who lives in your heart..

And I know there is a million stars between us..
But they won't stop my longing..
To hold you and to kiss you..How I love you..
And I'll find my way to you wherever you are..
Cause you are in my soul and you have got my heart..
And your love will carry me on ..

This is exactly how i am feeling....missing U...

silly

2007-08-23T20:30:00.000+08:00

i feel so silly....i closed a deal today. went back home to rest...then 7pm i decided to go back office to write the report n do some calling...dress up nice nice...prepared le n set off...

reached my office building...n walked around. want to eat dinner...but dunno wad to eat...so went NTUC n gt a drink n Ricola(coz dun haf le). went popular browse...then went up. reached 11th floor...happily scan my pass. I normally put pass in my wallet. but i scan scan scan...cannot open. i open my wallet n realised i left it in my jeans at home! walau eh...

juz then, 2 other agents walked in...i feel so paiseh...i didnt follow...coz...even i manage to get thru the 1st 2 door,i cant go into my office w/o a pass! Urgh...

Today is bro HQ bday...wanted to meet him for supper but zw cant make it.then i tot since bro wana meet his fren n i dunno wad time i will finish writing my report.so i cancelled the supper. haiz....if only i meet HQ for supper...then i wont be home.

Silly silly silly

2007-08-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

I seemed to be in a crisis...i feel so lost in life...gosh

2007-08-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

Friday nite i went to KushIn-bO @ Suntec. I find it pretty alrite....the cold king crab is superb!of coz i chiong for my shashimi....not bad...quite fresh.(better than Sakura) But i think Hoshi one is still good! They have the concept whereby there's this "special". They would play a music..(goes...dong dong dong 123..kushin bo.....)then all the ppl will chiong n queue up. They would serve a special that is first come first served.No pic taken coz i was busy eating crab...haha...It's pretty pricey.Bill comes up to almost 100 for 2 pax. W/o the cold crab,i would prefer Hoshi.

Sat nite.....will update once i get the pics loaded.

NYNY

2007-08-15T23:09:00.000+08:00

Went lunch with my cousin Stacey n Jonathan and Rachel(Jonathan gf). Went to New York New York....

I like the menu design. looks like those newspaper magazine kind.

Cheese balls. hmm....dun look cheesy rite? dun look like in the shape of BALL rite? but it's named Cheese balls. not bad la...
Jonathan had ribs. so=so onli....
i had bratz sausage with bacon n cheese. nt bad....

Rachel had Chicken leg wif Fetucini..the pasta is actually quite nice...

Stacey had fish n chip...

I drank thier Hot Rich chocolate...slurp!

And our dessert is Fried MARS bar...

One of the concept is that they give free flow of cotton candy!!!

Overall dining experience was alrite...food ain't that fantastic though.

2007-08-11T10:48:00.000+08:00

i am in pain...urgh...

woken up to very disturbing noise at 8+am.stupid bus n car honking downstairs...somemore i slept at abt 3+am...urgh. kinda pissed off...oh ya...i have been craving for Mcdonald's breakfast for very very very long...like months? My work place at SPC gt Mcdonald...but i'm not those early birds so by the time i reach office its like past breakfast time. If nt,when i get to office early,its for meeting, and when my meeting ends,out came the lunch menu....haiz....

but today i finally get my Mcdonald breakfast...Yum Yum....hotcakes anyone??

still in pain...

2007-08-11T02:58:00.000+08:00

My flu is still bugging me...nt so much of running nose...but its erm...nt sore throat...nt cough...its like sometimes will "zao sia"(out of voice).

today went to office for meeting n then went hme rest. then abt 4pm i couldnt take it..so i went to tampines to chiong the last minute METRO SALE. Metro is closing down..and for the past weeks its having clearance sale....went there twice. some stuff is realli worth grabbing esp like ladies undergarments,men's shirt,bedsheets,pillow etc. most times going at 50% and some additional 30%. today is the last day...so i juz went there n see wad i can grab out of it...after the huge discount,i still manage to spend about $100. haiz... bought a set of bedsheet(Looney Toons one),towels for whole family(didnt know towel so expensive one til today...original price is $33.90 each!),a bag for my mum and a shirt for ah Law. didnt get undergarment coz too packed le...anyway the previous 2 times i bought quite a few le...all FREE!!! coz my aunt n mum paid for it..lol....

Rushed hme and met up wif bro n zw. went to Grapevine for dinner. Their new place is much better than the previous one...more seats and the setting is nice for chilling out!gd service by 2 of them...bro HQ drove me there n zw sent me back...lol.thanks! i always prefer to be driven than driving. GET THE HINT??? =P

hmm...its 3+am nw...i cant sleep...haiz.....

2007-08-07T21:53:00.001+08:00

today i went to Victor's Kitchen to try the dim sum. It is really good. And the price is very affordable. I went with my cousin n aunt. Ordered about 12-15 dishes. total bill is $30.60 only!

Located at Sunshine Plaza #01-21. Its not those classy kind of place. simple small place. but very delicious. Fresh ingredients too.

2007-08-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

你知道痛楚的感觉吗？

有一个男人，从来不知道痛楚的感觉，直至他爱上一个女人。

从前的他，常常被女孩子包围著，向他大献殷勤，他从来不需要追求女孩子。他最担心的，不是别人不爱他，而是别人太爱他。

有一个女孩子，深深地爱著他，为他放弃了自己的事业。同居三年，她发觉他从未爱过她，他只是不讨厌她而已。

分手那一天，她含泪按著自己的胸口问他：

「你知道我这里有多痛吗？」

他觉得内疚，可是他却不知道她有多痛。

直至有一天，他爱上一个女人，那个女人却不能爱他，他才明白心痛的滋味。
长夜漫漫，思念一个人，原来是那么痛苦的。

每当她在他面前出现，他却不可以碰她。他的喜怒哀乐仿佛全由她一手控制。得不到一个人，原来是那么痛的。

她流一滴眼泪，他就愿意为她赴汤蹈火。可是，他知道，怀抱她的，是另外一个男人。他在夜里独自饮泣。原来，爱一个人，是有痛楚的。

他终于明白，从前那个深深地爱著他的女人，按著胸口所说的那种痛楚，到底有多痛，到底有多痛。